We can't forget what happened
Reflecting upon Covid, with Covid (listen to this post inside!)
(EDIT: I actually wrote up this newsletter 4 days ago, before I had my positive LFT result, and about 6 weeks after the extract that I share below. I'm not quite sure why, but I find this timeline interesting and I wanted to share that with you, and also to explain my gentle croak if you're listening)
About 6 weeks ago, I was sat in a Cafe watching people connect with one another. It was beautiful, but at the same time this idea came over me that I had to journal out. I was thinking about the pandemic, and how we cannot forget how these simple moments of sharing in person were taken away from us.
So I wanted to share this raw, unedited writing that came to me. I'm reluctant to call it poetry, I guess because I have fears about proclaiming something as such and putting it up for judgment. This is why I am keeping it unedited, so that I can fall back on the excuse of not 'perfecting' it, yet at the same time I believe that more people should be sharing their drafts, because that raw energy IS perfect. How much is lost in the pursuit of perfection?
Anyways, it came from the heart, or the soul (or both), and I wanted to share it:
We can't forget what happened.
Can't let our mind paint over it with new concerns and issues, pretending as though it never happened. As though there are only future events to ponder.
Because the body never forgets. It holds it deep; in every wave of anxiety, flutter in your heart or turn of your stomach.
In the angry outbursts and the deep sadness.
And the mind forgets, tells itself that it is stupid to feel this way.
But the body knows. It knows how it felt, and it is scared as the mind tells it to stop over-reacting; there is nothing wrong.
But the body feels it, in every present moment that the mind tries to tear it away from.
It stores all the memories. The unprocessed moments.
All it wants is to be heard, to be understood.
It wants to repattern and to release.
Don't let the mind drown out the body.
It holds all the answers.
Let's not forget what our body still stores within it.
Thank you for allowing me to be vulnerable.
Have a gorgeous day,
Becca xx